one word to conclude my 2008 -- tears  cannot count how much tears i have dropped in 2008... 2009 started for more than 1 week... i feel so useless and frustrated abt myself all the time... i did try my best to be positive...it sometimes works... most of the time i feel so frustrated abt my life...abt myself... i really feel so hang fook to hv my dearest mr chan, my dearest friends and family to be with me n to support me  i know i have created a lot of troubles to you all...esp my dearest mr chan and parents...i really feel so sorry abt that... i don't know what to do except crying and praying... i do follow doctor's instruction: - take medicine everyday (even though i really hate medicine) - rest more (i do staying a lot of time on the bed even i cannot sleep) - do something i am interested in it (my nails are so pretty =P and i do read fashion magazine everyweek...even though my interests seems decreasing) pls tell me what should i do.... can anyone help me.... actually i know the answer....the only one can help me...is....MYSELF!!! i am sorry i really need loads of care n support at this moment...i really cannot find the wayout myself at this moment... | 
